i seriously need scales. itd keep me at least a tiny bit sane. measuring by hand makes me fucking paranoid.
i feel like a fucking failure, had 2 apples, muesli bar light, handful candies, a bit of kwark (fatless), cough drops and rhum.
fuck me fuck my fat ass that hurts when i sit. its not even bony enough it shouldnt hurt. fuck my useless body fuck my useless head fuck it all and kill it.